9:35 AM

yuck! i dont understand heymath. had my first lesson for amath tuition yest at caravan. the teacher is spastic..talk very funny. but im thankful i din burst out laughing..was also happy to see xin en there. *grins. and alice too. but i felt super dumb and stupid. he was explaining relative velocity and stuff. i took like one hr plus to do part one of the qn. wth. ruhh.
maybe im just dumb. not cut out for stupid maths. but i shall not let this get me down. rah!!
and i feel so naughty and so slack..i din really study last night..fel aslp..and theres mock exam for ss tmr and im not even half way done. wow. im gonna hafta drink coffee tonight.
*cheers.

9:17 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

the passing of a loved one.
havent experienced it yet..so i do not know how it feels. im living in such a blessed life and i do not realise it. how selfish i have been. i do admit i do try to be caring sometimes but ive just not tried hard enough. i cannot imagine what it is like if any of my grandparents passed away. i feel ashamed. sigh. i can only pray for them everyday..
ok. im not supp to be doin this but. ackx. gonna sleep late today. ruh.

i love you more than life

7:59 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

my gosh. i feel stupid. i dont understand a hoot bout relative velocity and kinematics! feel like screaming. walao. feel super what now. what? what? what?!!
ruhh. i feel very stupid now. the qn was so simple. and i dono how to do! *bangs my head.

1:48 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

complicated yet it seems so clear ;
if i open up my heart you'd be so near to me.



im dead.brain dead. its amazing that i actually came online. drinkin prune juice now..amazing how i can still have constipation when im on caron fast. anyway..gonna fast 12 hrs tmr..realised that when i dont eat at all i focus so much more on god..did 24 hr fast on mon..so proud of myself..thank god i din die halfway..studying for chi somemore.. really thank him. hoo! praise him!
ok.lookin thru blogskins now for a sticky person. and also for myself. wanna change my skin..gettin boring..butt.i must find time. and im tired.


oh jon..i went really madd on sun.was jumping round the hse singin "gimme oil in my lamp" really went nuts.
-slap meee.

11:09 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

til i see you face to face grace amazing takes me home.
oh how true.
gonna be zapped of energy this week. draines of everything. gonna mug like nv before. 5 tests dis week. can you believe it? but i shall not let myself fall. so i look to you
give me courage to tell the world.

8:26 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i feel horrible. really horrible. guilty and..sigh.
im such a coward. seriously.



she sits there all alone.
they say the eyes are windows to one's soul.
agreed, oh. how true
i see fear. and despair. and loss.
sequestered.
behold,
see the world through her eyes?
to take her hand. feel her anguish.
debility. enervation. weakness.
the frailty of life.
will she not know "love"?
abashed, infamy, mortified,
i am.


seems so chim right? trying to improve my vocab?
im ashamed of myself.not because of my vocab. just. . .
RAH.

5:11 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

im eating oats now. added milo to it. taste wonderful.
im on caron fast now. its eating veg, fruits, juices and beverages. hahas. two days has passed. hungry and everything but. god will give me strength!
so i maybe more grouchy or weak or mad during this period of 40 days. do forgive me if i step on your toes. im gonna pray for alot of things and really come before god. have to commit so many things to him. so many things that are distracting me and killing me softly. rah.
then yest worship was superb. brother A led very good. was reminded to trust in god. sigh. its so diff to put don everything and really depend on god. even something which is so simple like food..and we struggle with it. wonder how the muslims take it when they fast..really..twelve hrs of only water? really trying.
school is getting tougher and rougher. and it will get even worse. i can feel it. but with god's grace. i will go thru this.


our God is an awesomw god he reigns
from heavn above in wisdom, power and love
our god is an awesome god.


stir in my heart lord. a passion for your holy name.


and to really honour god. i shall fast on my bithday. so please dun give me chocs. it will be so tempting :)
jesus lives!

8:24 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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